Help me sleep PLZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Finally peace and quite.

I havent been here in a long time have i. its 12:30 and i cant sleep. Nicky's leaving for school again in two days, and im gunna miss her. School starts at the end of the month. I don' twanna go back to that hellhole, Dramma is my only outlet and now I have all this resonsibility I don't want. Sure it was fun being the aprentice, but now. And now I am expected to be this great builder and live up to Mak, and well I Suck. And to top things off the kids in scouts are making me consider even getting eagle. Well I hope no one reads this anymore beacuse I just wanna say. I'm tired of my dad not listening to me, of people looking down on me,Nicky's consant mood swinges, the fact that I can stand up for me or my friends, and that im so lost with girls, and I wish I wasn't so fuckin ugly. The last one because im tired of girls looking at me like im a pathetic bug.

TatA My friend